Heading towards healthy lifestyles!?!

Was quite unhappy for past few weeks.. But,, Guess I'm better now.. Mood have improved over the time.. Probably having more activities.. Went for Ning's bdae last fri, at Adams road, Shoyoku resturant if i'm not wrong.. Hehe,, Fresh sushi, mouth dripping salmon and sweet green tea white chocolate fondue~!!!!! Yummy~!!!!! Hehe, So long since i've met my sec school dear friends~! After the dinner, went out with Tracy n Ang~ Actualli planned for mind cafe but,, was thinking should go for a drink? Went to Timber but was full hse, so Ended up in KTV again~!! Fun though~!! hehehehe...
Sat meet up with Mk n lihdar~ Planned for Sentosa suntanning but.. So sad.. Weather wasn't good that day.. -_-" BUT~ Went to east coast park in the evening with them n a few of MK's friend for blading~ HEhehehe,, HAs been so long seen i've this kinda fun~ Bladed for 3 hours from one end of east coast to tanah merah chalet? Tiring yet super fun~!!!! More next time? I want to buy roller blade~! ehhehehehe... Need more exercise!
Its the start of my CCP part 1 today.. After so long of not studying,, suddenly feels that studying is so tiring,, But yet, miss those days of schooling~ Hope that i'm able to cope well ba.. Goin to sleep le... Charging energy for tml's class again~!!!

Trust??

Recently heard from one of my friend that she saw u outside with another girl... Was that true?? Nowadays i began to be more n more speechless with what others were telling mi about u.. i started to ponder n don't know which side should i trust though i know probably u won't do this kind of thing...
How to get back the kind of trust again, i kept asking myself, one side of me still wanted to trust u,, but another side of me don't..... I've lost my usual me..
Luckily, nowadays i have some of my friends to accompany me.. Thanks dudes~
My ccp course is coming in a week time~ goin to be busy with the studies i guess~ wanted to have a break~~~ to beaches?? mayb that's where i can think through clearly~ I miss Tioman~!!!!!

Great day today~

At last, i've got a chance to sun tanning~ went to sentosa with dear, pq, dext, shawn.. have a great time there playing volleyball n sun tanning~ So long nv had this kind of fun.. >.<
after an afternoon of beach, went to have mac then headed down to shenton way's party world for ktv session.. hehe.. great day thou. misses the time we got together~ Those were the time..
Now, probably things are diff.. pple grow and changes.. Lots of things happening around us.. Probably after so long... I've change also...
Trusted that dear had alreay quit his smoking habit... Even his friends think so... but... today,,,,
so happen so that his friend called, while looking for his hp in the bag... Unintentionally found a packet a cigratte in his bag... though hoping that that was belongs to his friend but.. i guess i know its not... i'm not angry, didn't throw my temper... but just disappointed..... i guess, its realli hard for him to quit ba...
Its getting harder and harder for us to talk now... not even able to tell my unhappiness... just like yesterdae... a simple joke can actualli broke out a quarrel... always thinking that was it my fault or he has really changed... Just feel that he is not the him i knew before.... This few days.. n weeks.. i've been calm... thinking through everything,,, the 3yrs plus nearly to 4yrs of relationship.. its like getting worse... things doesn't turn out the way i wish it would be.. topics are getting lesser n lesser... laughter are missing... the love that i used to have is somehow gone.. what should be done to carry on this pathway....???? probably i need a short break to somewhere peaceful... realli wish that i could find a place to hide myself, to bury the stone that i had... Hope that things will turn out better..

I'm Lost...

Is it because we don't want to face the truth? Are u avoiding the problem.. Or am I in the wrong.. Somethings has gone wrong in my relationship... The longer the relationship goes, the lesser the topics we have n.. more conflicts arises.... i tot every thing's going to be alright.. but it doesn't seems so..
I tot that u quit smoking at ur own will like u told mi earlier on but i'm wrong when u said today that i'm the one who force u to quit when u don't want to.. I'm trying very hard to give u the space that u wanted.. At times... i just want to tell u i'm really feeling left out.. But.. I seems to be in the wrong again for being not understanding..
U said that you're afraid of telling mi your problems cos i might think negatively... but.. do u notice that u're actually telling mi that i'm in the wrong when maybe u dun meant that way... It somehow hurts mi alot when u said those things to me... Especially when u told mi, your happiest moment is when u're at work.... How much does it hurts.. Do u know???
How can a relationship carries on when you're actually afraid of ur partner.. when things said are always misunderstood.. what shall i do..... I'm not trying to dominate this relationship... I just want u to be better... Why do i seems to envy other couples so much... All i wanted is just more care n concern perhaps more understanding.. Is it so hard????.......

Maybe.. We both need more time????..... sometimes.. I really feel that you don't want to face our problems...

I'm Lost....

I'm Tired~

0100hrs.. at my workplace now.. got to work till tml morning 7.30am plus 8.. nowadays kept having this mixed feeling.. dun realli feel happy.. At times, i feel so lonely... Live for 21years+ le.. what have i achieved? i guess.. i can't even tell.. Am i happy? Is this the kind of life i wanted??? Is there anything that can spice up my life? is there a world of wonders?

Unpredictable life..

Had a friend from our security family, who is also my ex supervisor from who just left on the 10th June 2008, leaving us and his family for another world... He worked all his life for his family, being good to his colleague...
Life is so unpredictable, few weeks ago, i just saw him in indoor, working and we're still chatting.. but... yesterday, recieved a news from one of my colleague saying that he was in the hospital, not doin very well... Initially, thought that he will still get well.. but when i got down to cgh... things didn't turn out the way i thought.. he was so ill... just waiting for the time to come by....
Things just happen so suddenly... at around 1130plus, he went off peacefully.. Probably, this will end his sufferings ba... But.. Won't be able to see him around us again... Its a kind of weird feeling..
Lets send our sincere condolences to his family and may he rest in peace.
Im sure he'll be fondly remembered by many...